I vaguely recalled something like this but I forget the URL/haven't had the chance to check it out further yet! Thank you for sharing this/reminding me to check it out :)

And yeah haha, I know how to be positive but thank you for the reminder. part of the reason I'm under a random name is because I needed a place to vent that is more or less not linked to who I am. I do understand how important appearances can be/how what you say can impact how you're perceived.

> don't have much that I can help you with

Clearly, I appreciate the concern but I can handle my mental health more or less just fine on my own thank you very much. I spoke to a psychiatrist on the phone days ago before I was evicted due to my own concerns and doubts in regards to my mental health/"conditions". They said they think I'm fine and they apologized for the "welfare" check I went through. Stigmatizing an individual as lacking a connection to reality based on their honesty with their past history/struggles with psychosis doesn't exactly seem very fair, does it? And let's say perhaps you are correct, just as a hypothetical, I am indeed in the throes of a psychotic episode! Oh no, what ever should someone in a position like me do?! I tried going to a 24/7 medical centre when I first got evicted and I claimed I was suicidal and very tempted to jump off a bridge but that was brushed aside and not taken seriously, I so desperately wanted to get "help" from the "healthcare/helping systems" we have in place. I was told I'd be fine and that I seem very intelligent! That's the help you get with our systems... I highly encourage you to do more research in regards to what going through a condition like psychosis is actually like for an individual/the social stigma around such a condition/the implications of such stigma/the long-term effects of anti-psychotic medications, the actual "support" most medical staff commonly provide to someone in a position like that, the number of peer reviewed studies with a sample size that isn't piss poor/etc in regards to conditions like that, the relationship between trauma/PTSD and psychosis, and how shitty of a job our systems are doing at implementing/practicing a bio-psycho-social model of care. I've had to learn *A LOT* on my own to understand what the hell is going on with me, almost no one has provided me with any real and or practical resources. A few days ago my previous "therapist" called a "welfare" check on me after I sent them an email expressing major frustration in regards to the "therapy" I have received over the past 6 years. I swore and said some unkind things towards them because I really am more or less near my breaking point and while none of this is her "fault", I would be far better off if they recognized the limitations of their training and referred me to someone/something who may have been able to provide support/resources to me that would _actually_ help someone in a situation like mine.

> I have a close family member with mental health issues. Your situation is going to make you more exposed for a psychosis episode. I'd focus on getting somewhere to sleep at any cost (any CC to max out?) as soon as possible to avoid getting an episode while you are homeless.

I agree! The longer I go without sleep, the more stress I go through, the more adversity I face, etc -> the more likely that will be to trigger another possible psychotic episode, I've managed to catch about 2 hours of sleep last night/this morning due to staying in a different section of a hospital/waiting room. Before that I was able to get a consistent 6-8 hours of sleep every night in the hospital until a guard "kindly" recommended I spend more time "visiting" and less time "lounging", today (last night?) I was recently woken up by a different security guard while I was catching some sleep in a different section of the hospital lobby (they were much kinder than the last one, credit where credit is due) anyways this nice security guard told me to move to a different waiting room but they also interrupted the little bit of rest/sleep I was trying to get while staying warm! Indeed, what a wonderfully caring "heathcare" system it is we have! Sorry for the tad bit of anger I'm expressing here but I've already maxed out my CC, I'm in a debt, and I REALLY have tried everything I can think of to put myself in a better position, including applying to numerous jobs with my unusual background, tailoring my CV to positions, trying to raise VC for my project (this surprisingly seems to be going better than my job search!), and that's not to say I haven't made mistakes in this process, maybe I could do a better job in regards to selling myself, if so please reach out and feel free to offer me some practical advice in regards to that. But please don't be demeaning in regards to my "connection to reality". I do encourage you to reflect on how difficult it is to find a job in this industry/field when you more or less have very few professional connections, no degree/certs, are a highschool dropout (btw I wish I could go back to school, I regret dropping out, I've always loved learning, lately I've been focusing on chaos/physics/information/quantum physics/graphs/etc and there's nothing more I'd love than to be able to pursue something like this formally now but I haven't been able to find a feasible way to support myself while pursuing that formally when you take into account that I need to survive/pay rent/food/bills/etc, Perhaps I missed something/some resources though, do feel free to provide some practical advice/resources/people I can contact to figure out a pathway to pursue such things :)

Idk,maybe my "tenuous connection to reality" is really the problem! The problem isn't maybe me having a crappy approach to writing a CV (Might be! I've had to teach myself more or less everything in this life) which one could offer practical advice/tips on, the problem isn't maybe my "poor grasp" on programming/practical coding skills/etc (which could be improved on! not to mention it's also possible to provide practical learning resources/skill assessments/feedback on such skills), the problem isn't maybe a piss poor social support system in my province, etc. Nope, it is *most definitely* my "lack of connection with reality." Once again, I apologize for the anger I'm expressing. But please reflect on how you expect your response to be of any use, guidance, or like a pointer towards a real resource, or to be of any actual help for someone in a position like mine. I hope your family member is doing okay and is able to find the support they need, it's just that if I'm being frank, I'm not able to find such things despite trying very hard to do so.

I will do so shortly! thanks for giving someone in a position like mine a small chance, even if I'm not quite what you're looking for it's nice knowing there's someone who would be kind enough to do that. I'd also be more than happy to jump through any skill assessments to see if I'd be a good fit/get on a VTC to verify I'm real haha

Thanks for the advice! I'm not sure how feasible it would be for me to make it out to BC with next to no money + the cost of living out there is somewhat insane but I'll keep that in mind. I hope you're doing well :)

Does Vancouver lack a vehicle dwelling ban? They seem to be fairly liberal and have a relatively nice climate.

> If I heard this while I was interviewing a candidate, I would write a note to myself: "Be prepared for more of this."

I agree with you, I wasn't able to provide the full story due to the HN character limit. The contract I signed when I took up work with them explicitly stated my public work will remain mine. If that wasn't in the contract I would have said no. As I put it, it might not be a great look. Thanks for bringing that up

> If I heard this while I was interviewing a candidate, I would wonder whether they lacked awareness of the need to follow established processes.

I agree, there probably is an established process I should have spent time looking into rather than raising the issue directly with the staff who work at the place/with the system itself. Like I said, I was a bit frustrated but it's definitely possible I could have brought that up in a more productive way

> So there's at least one occasion when the person had a break from reality, leading to them being kicked out of a house. I know it's important to avoid stigmatizing those with mental illness, but the person has indicated that they had a bad experience with treatment and are not currently in treatment, so it would not be unreasonable to expect that this psychosis could occur again.

That was my first and so far only episode of psychosis, from my point of view it wasn't so much a bad experience with treatment. But a bad experience by nearly ending up homeless after due to my family kicking me out after I stabilized in the hospital/received/participated in treatment for my first ever episode of psychosis.

> Not exactly legal or ethical. Obviously, they're facing dire circumstances, which might mitigate their culpability, but would you want to hire someone who uses social engineering to deceive people?

I lied about being a visitor compared to the very real alternative of freezing to death, shoot me lol

> Again, they're facing dire circumstances, which might mitigate their culpability, but they're also being quite open about being willing to steal, which is not exactly a desirable trait for most employers.

I somewhat agree, I'm not proud of stealing food and I have already went to a foodbank/received $27 to buy some food but that unfortunately only lasted a few days and I started getting hungry again/haven't been able to find more support for food since. Although maybe I should just try harder. Either way, thanks for bringing up that broadcasting that is a red flag, that is something I should be a bit more wary of, I've made a mental note of that but I doubt I'll need it once I get back on my feet

A hungry man cannot steal food.

Thank you for your kindness, that's plenty of help as is! I agree, I'll figure something out eventually. Lifes just kinda crappy right now :/ I was able to get the ball rolling on social supports somewhat recently but I've been told it could take up to a couple weeks until that finalizes/I'm able to secure financial aid. I didn't really realize weekends would be a lot rougher than weekdays when you don't have a place to stay but they are

Thank you for offering some kindness/another perspective, it's appreciated more than you know

I honestly agree and I'm also a bit surprised lol. I've been very wary of scams lately as many of them have gotten much better with the progress that's happening with AI. I should have made it more clear I'm looking more for kind/understanding people to talk to/get advice from rather than any financial aid or something of that sort, alas I ran into the character count limit on HN

Sorry, I wrote 8000+ characters the first time but HN limits the character count on text posts. I'd be happy to add some more details here as I think you raise some great points! I'd tend to agree with you for most things but let me clear up a few things too :)

> there's an undercurrent of "the world is out to get me personally" to it. Everything bad happens to him, he's not responsible for anything that may have put him in his situation.

I'm 100% responsible for choosing to leave a good company to pick up a contract with a company working on something similiar to my FOSS project, a contract that explicitly stated any and all public work I have will remain mine, not to mention the fact my project is AGPL licensed.

> Glosses over why he chose a psychologist who apparently is also an astrologist as well.

I didn't choose my psychologist, they came highly recommended to me by a psychitriast I was seeing who I've had to since stop seeing due to the fact his case load was too much and he moved to a different province. I didn't actually know she was an astrologist until she brought that up, that's when I started paying attention/learning about red flags to watch out for.

> "No" was an option. And he was hired for his work on an open source project. And they wanted to pay him to work on it and sell a product or service around it. And? Why was that so intolerable to him?

I find it amusing you bring up "framing", that's what you are doing. I wasn't hired to work on my open source project, the contract I signed explicitly stated my public work will remain mine, although the reality turned out different :)

> And apparently he left his previous job in such a way they wouldn't have him back.

I did yes, I wasn't working with them for very long and they were quite pissed I left so soon. I'll own that mistake

> exaggerates his own skills. Like the claim he "social engineered" his way into being a visitor at a hospital. Yeah. That's just straight up lying. You go sit in a visitor's area and say you're visiting. It's not difficult or challenging. Most people don't do it because there's no need to.

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/social%20engineer...

> management of human beings in accordance with their place and function in society : applied social science

You're correct, it's cold and I don't want to freeze so I lied and claimed to be a visitor. Perhaps I misunderstand this definition found at this dictionary I linked, would you be so kind as to explain it like I'm 5?

> This dude needs to make life traumatic because that's the only thing he knows. It's the only thing he's comfortable with. Everything has to be a confrontation, a challenge, adversarial, because for the first 8 years of his life, that was his life. He thinks that's normal.

I would much rather life not be traumatic, I try my best to be kind to people but regardless I make mistakes sometimes, like all humans do. I'm curious as to what I said that indicates my circumstances are me trying to make my life more traumatic than it already is. Please do explain, I'd love to learn about/hear more about that perspective :)

> You could take him in. Give him a roof, three hots, and a cot. And yeah, for the first few weeks

That's not what I'm requesting, could you please quote what I said that indicates that? Perhaps I need to work on my communication more :) I kind of was more or less just looking for people I could talk to who would be kind/understanding. Someone reached out saying they would be willing to pay for a hotel for me for a couple nights but I replied that I wouldn't really feel comfortable with that coming from a stranger but also that I wouldn't say no and I'd do my best to pay them back once I'm back on my feet

I really do hope you never experience hardship in life, take care of yourself :)