Hugs, I'm not gonna make this about me, just so sorry you had to go through this too. It does take time to recover to the point where we're functional again; but prolonged periods of fight/flight, and no safe place, does something to our psyche as well as physical health. I trigger easily on things from toxic men that most women manage to deal with by age 13 or so. Struggling now to find ways of making the world a better place so that our children and grandchildren don't have to go through this too.