Super serious question: What the fuck do you think purpose and life meaning is supposed to look like?
Seriously, because it isn't like a movie where the clouds open up. God isn't talking to you from a flaming bush. You're not going to achieve buddhist enlightenment or something like that. What are your expectations of what purpose/meaning/etc in life is supposed to be that you're disappointed?
Just having something I am really passionate about doing and striving toward. I feel so ho hum. I don't think life itself needs a purpose, but I would like my life moving forward to mean something to me. I can't figure out what I want it to mean.
Seriously, because it isn't like a movie where the clouds open up. God isn't talking to you from a flaming bush. You're not going to achieve buddhist enlightenment or something like that. What are your expectations of what purpose/meaning/etc in life is supposed to be that you're disappointed?