I'd recommend downloading some lectures. I struggled with Linear Algebra before downloading Strang's MIT lectures, and I didn't understand the Dragon Book before following Coursera's Automata Theory course.
I had a really math light college degree, and never went through calc. It's always been pretty interesting and seams to show up enough places to warrant learning it, but I'm awful with time management. I'm bad about not giving myself consistent blocks of time to work through things. I think I'll give strang's calc videos another shot.
